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LETTERS TO HIS FATHER AND SISTERS
Plans for his academic career. Buying time overseas
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Rome, 24th March 1909Dearest Father,
I have just recieved your letter and read what you wrote to me. The idea and aim I was talking to you about is to take exams for a lectureship at the university, and later, when Kazazis leaves, to become a university professor - this aim will be realised. I will sit these exams in early May or perhaps late April. But I completed the book I wanted to write for that purpose - to present to the professors later on - in late February in Paris, because I worked night and day to finish it. And I did.
So I have between one and a half and two months until exam time. That because I will be in Athens on April 15th. So I reckoned that if I went to Athens straight away, I would spend the same amount of money, whereas there was no need for me to stay in Paris, since I had finished my work. Going home and then leaving again only to return would have cost me the same amount. I had to see how I could do myself the greatest benefit at the same expense. And I decided it was for the best to spend half the month in Florence and the rest in Rome. I can assure you, dearest father, that I am not wandering around in foreign parts and that I am not suffering this and that far away from you just for the fun of it, like a traveller. If only you were to write to the homes in which I lived, they could tell you how much I worked, how much I burnt the midnight oil these past two years. While all the young people, all my friends, were enjoying life, I was alone with my books in my room, or at the universities, trying to earn what you were spending on me. I know that no other father has done as much for his child as you - but I can assure you, father, that that money did not go to waste. My education and development, what I saw and learnt are without precedent in Heraklion, or one might say for any young man on Crete. And I hope one day to honour the name you gave me.
I did not leave Florence at my pleasure, but I had to see Rome and study it. I have need of all these things, I suffer in studying them, and suffer twice as much when I think of the effort involved in making the money you send me.
You know that I am not one of those young men who do not think of or know of their debts. I am even spending less on food so as to make the money you sent me on 15th February last for two months. I want to make all my travel expenses from saving on food - I do not spend so much as a farthing without thinking about it. But I do not know if I will manage to hold out until 10th April. But since that is when I will leave here for home, the last 10 twenty drachma notes for my ticket and travel expenses to Athens will have to reach me here by early April. Because I do not know anyone here and if at some stage I run out of money here, I do not know what I will do.
Dear father, forgive me for this long letter I am sending you. But I do not know how to tell you that I know very well everything you do for me, things that no other father has ever done - and that I am suffering and studying a great deal in foreign lands, that I am not wandering around to kill time, because one day I want to make a name for us.Nίκος
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